I miss sleeping. Simple as that. It's 4 nights in a row now where I've gotten up around 3 or 4 in the morning and haven't gone back to sleep. The reasons for getting up that early revolve around my son having nightmares (which breaks my heart), the marines (don't ask) and then my own one-hundred and hour mind. You know when you can't sleep because your thinking too much? Or is that just me I wonder.
I inherited a very interesting trait from my mom. She and I are very analytical. I am always trying to solve problems. Not necessarily problems but I think about the best ways to handle things that come up in life and then after I've come up with a plan I try and work out each scenario that can occur and see if there is a better plan. I'm a nut job. Simple as that. And then if things don't go according to plan... then I think about how I could have foreseen the outcome and what should I have done about it.
I thinks it's hilarious that I've married someone like Addison. He's so laid back and takes things as they come. I hope some of that has rubbed off on me... It may take a few more years. He's one of those people who enjoy the ride; not just the destination. I love that about him. I love him. Simple as that. He is a great husband. He's a great dad. He's a great friend. He's just great. 
I've read through this and I think it's clear that I'm insane. But I'm just going to chalk it up to lack of sleep. I hope I didn't scare anyone with this glimpse into my mind.
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This picture's from Highschool. It was the first one I could find and I was just too lazy to keep looking.
I thought it looked like the PHS days.
No, I have sleeping issues that revolve around thinking too much also. Even if I'm really, really tired, as soon as I get in bed, I think of a bunch of things to do/look at/eat that all involve getting out of bed and staying up later so that my eyes will be more red in the morning from lack of sleep.
So I don't know if that makes you feel normal--probably not, but at least you can know someone else does this too.
You guys are so perfect for each other. p.s. I totally called you back and left you a message!
I think too much too at times. And like you ana, it seems to happen the most when I lay down to go to sleep. I lay there for an hour or so because I don't let my mind stop! I wake up in the morning a lot more tired than Taylor. But about your post, it was great! I love glimpses into peoples' minds...especially because I write in my journal a lot and that's how my journal reads always.
haha ana you are awesome! -jord
I think you are awesome too, Ana, and so glad you are Addison's wife. We think you are amazing--and so smart, and spiritually sensitive. That's why you can't stop that mind from buzzing all night. We love you!
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